I've been practicing zen, for 9 years or so.

My sangha (community) is Zenways.

It is grounding and centering to have a regular practice and the focus on Hara work really helps with embodiment, although it can also quicken the energy into imbalance and it is wise to have a supportive and nurturing approach to it. In my experience there are many ways to foster our compassion, starting with ourselves, and recognising the power of our intention, or focus.

I studied to become a yoga and meditation teacher with Zenways and did my first sesshin(annual zen retreat) in 2011.

It was so great, awful and funny.

I had no idea what I was doing and was all at sea and overwhelmed.

Shinzan Roshi, at first inscrutable and looking at me like I was crazy, gently turned kind as he heard that I felt I had no confidence

I was the embodiment of defeat after trying so hard for so long.

( my recurring theme from early childhood, yes !! ).

All as I struggled to understand what was needed from me to answer the koan

(which is a universal zen challenge to our individual mind)

'Does a dog have Buddha Nature?...

......MU !!'

I found the answer within, after a bit of orientation,

and also recognised the koan process with joy, as I uncovered my deeper strengths and communicated them to Shinzan over the five days,

from surviving an attack on my life,

giving birth to my baby,

and all the other life events where I had to gather myself completely together to act,

nothing left out.

I had to totally BE ONE with these happenings to survive.

In the middle of the five days Shinzan said to me,


My mind turned towards his,

we were both floating a couple of feet off the ground (yes ! that is that experience)

BUT I had a BUT, as the old feeling of being a piece of nothing,

a piece of shit,

floating unheard and unseen arose.

And then he said





The experience of this liberation is in the middle of those two states as though they are two sides of a gate into it.

My inquiry was resolved as my mind burst away from it's conditioning and opened even more.

The process came to me in picture form and I made a book out of it, called 'enter zen'.

(Link and preview below and some pages on the right)

Shinzans message is that we are all One Mind,

and to realise this level of reality lessens suffering and brings into focus

how and why we feel separation at the same time.

We then can start to work with what hinders our flow.

Because experiencing our own True Nature, as the One Mind, is the first step to expressing who we really are as individuals, how we work in our worlds, bringing the Buddha/True nature to fruition in all these worlds,

using all the skills we have to play our parts in the

Universal transformation of consciousness

     which is the One Mind in action.


contact: dainei@greatpeace.co.uk

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